GLEAMS UNRAVELLED

When I told Ramya that this is going to be my blog for the day, she asked me if its "Unanswered questions or answers" .Readers with the same confusion ,its the answers which i haven't answered to the questions so far.And yea to people who don't know Ramya,its better you don't know ! lol..

And i am totally jobless today .Had nothing to do other than publishing this post.

Some questions from people really sound obvious that i never reply to them.
Listed below are some samples.

I am online in YM and suddenly a window pops out asking..

[sender-undisclosed]:"Hey JC you alive ?"
"how can i be online if i am dead ?? "

Now i get into the sms. Annoyingly interesting sms i should mention.

sms1-"hey you there?"
my reply- where? (but i ve ne'er replied this)

msg1 to 'class' - "ethics portions chap 1 according to syllabus.Its unit 1,2 acc to Mike martin book"
reply 1- There are two books -white and green and topics arent the same.Which one are you referring to? [hmm sensible qtn!]
my reply- the green one
msg2 to 'class' - hey ppl,if you have green book its chap 1 and 2 .If its white or some other color book pls refer to the syllabus and check out the topic for yourself.
reply2- From the '$%#%#%' of my class.
hey i have green book ,which chapter to study?
Unanswered ans - Censored (really )
reply3- Hey i have white book and all topics are different.So cancel tomorrow's test
Unanswered ans - sure darling...What job on this earth have i got other than doing things you say??

XXX - why so much portions for tomorrow's test?
Unanswered ans - Because i prayed to offer 108 coconuts at the temple if the portions are this vast .. [my usual terms-to be simpler -' venduthal']

And some more questions : Merely fun..

Ramya - Why is ascendas/beach/T nagar so bloody crowded today?
My usual stare!! What else could i offer to the Great Lady.

Geethu - JC .. Are you free ??
"In what context should i take this question. Be specific ..lolzz.."

Aish - hi,are you messaging from someother number? sent:11.45 pm
"I dont message from my no itself. why would i do from someother number"

Some more answers:
Why did you delete your orkut account?-No reason !!

Why do you write blogs?-Because i like them

People wont be interested when you write about issues involving you -Its my wish, my blog page and i can write anything i want to.You people can stay away if they aren't interested.

Why doesn't your sms count get over for the day?-Its because i don't sms [silly!]

Some more unanswered - still unanswered..lolzz :)
what classes have you cancelled for tomorrow?
will abcd professor come to class tomorrow?
Will we definitely have assessment tomorrow?

If you do not get a reply from me its either one of the following:
1)I dint get or read your message yet !
2)I dont have balance to reply or there is some network problem !
3)I dont like to reply you!
4)I dont like you !

So i guess the Unanswered answers are revealed.

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep"

I dint know how to blaze a trail of my blog. So I have started with my favorite lines of Robin Wood.

And for all the people out there, if you aren’t apprehensive about my blog I m least perturbed. This is my own web page where I can post all the crap I want to, not for you to read wasting your time and whining later telling why do I write stuffs like this. Others move on!

Wanted to blog about “2006 in a glance”. Even jotted down points to be included in it but I was bogged down with yet another thoughts after my New Year celebration. No I was not partying. I celebrated my new year with the kids at KAAKUM KARANGAL orphanage at Thiruvanmiyur. I sought after to write about the orphanage (also old age home) and my time there, how I felt, rather how the inmates of the home felt and ways to improvise. But then again stuck up with my activities. It would be quite a mirth if I said they were related to my academics. Okay. I concede that I was also with some other errands like orkutting (bah!! Jobless am I?? ), Watching movies endlessly on TV and dvds. My dvd player is almost howling. Turning out to be a movie buff!! Right now humming “tere bina” from Guru (after effects of watching that film??)

Now I must also put in the picture what else I did. I have joined as a volunteer in an NGO called “DREAM INDIA2020”. Sounds fine I believe. I am in a few communities in orkut like “chennai social work “, “ help orphans”, etc., (don’t come and ask me if Mother Teresa’s blood is in my veins) and I had started a thread about my new year’s orphanage visit in those communities. The next day I check my inbox, I get a mail from an anonymous person introducing himself as Dream India2020 volunteer and requesting details about the orphanage I visited. I feel elated. To tell more about Dream India, this project mainly is implicated with the upliftment of the rural children. Dream India originated from fervor of a few youngsters and it spread therein across many cities in India and Chennai is no exception in the list. Right now Dream India is associated with helping the rural kids with their education, teaching them basic maths and English. It also helps to provide impetus and encouragement to the needy who are striving hard to live but still manage to study. Most of the volunteers are young college-goers and IT professionals and they aim to make a change. Talking to one of the volunteers, he said he had the inspiration from Dr. Kalam’s vision. A few people from my college are already volunteers and asking them how they got to know about this and their answer was “Orkut”. Now you understand why I was busy orkutting??

For long I had been thinking that orkut is really a waste of time though I was initially engrossed in it. But then in due course of time lost inquisitiveness and suddenly through orkut many things happen. “The real happiness comes from living your life for others”. These are not my words but of Amitabh Bachan’s in the film “BLACK”. And yet another notion from the film “RANG DE BASANTI “ tat youngsters can change the nation. Well I know many of us love these movies and do accept the thoughts so is Dream India, heading towards fulfilling Kalam’s vision with active youngster’s soul as its spirit and making MIGHTY INDIA where “EDUCATION TO ALL” has been achieved.

And now I become conscious that there are
“Miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep”

Grooved onto the awe-inspiring music, Here I am after a very long time wit yet another blog of mine. [PJ, especially on your demand :)] I dint know why I have become this bloody sluggish that I don’t even take time to post what I deem about . Myriad of thoughts seem to dwell in my mind these days .. [Hope I am not thrown any exceptions ]
I couldn’t make out what the premise of this write up looks like – philosophical or quite enthusiastic. Or it may even delineate me as a fanatic ..
Thoughts of what I have been doing all these days leave me apprehensive . Spoke to my buddy yesterday after a really long time n talking about my hustle n bustle activities my friend quotes my life to be “SUPER COOL” [!!! ]

Ahem.. I wanted to write about the grandeur of beach[ Bessy rocks big time :)].. The elegant sky which was pink. Wit me n my friends in beach.. on that exquisite evening..[Arrgg.. what happened next.. Now Aish n Rams pls don start scolding me !! ] But then I couldn’t get whatever thing more to write about that…

“ Who cares” ..” i am least bothered ”.. “So what “ .. These phrases are established trademarks of me.. I live in my own world mosta time. I have certain ideologies to what I stick to and I am very much self –opinionated. Its not that I don’t appreciate the opinions of others ..I am compassionate and empathetic . I am always ears . But still I don’t give up myself for the sake of others.
I don’t know if this is what people call “Attitude”.. Or even worse to mark me as “Egoistic”..
Well need I have to concede to it..?? Egoism and Altruism . Egoism - giving up others for self. Altruism - giving up self for others. Good explanation I guess..
Who is not selfish.?? who is not egoistic?? [ I am hunting for people who could give me a NO to the above questions] Man lives on this earth for himself and not for others. So there is nothing wide of the mark in being self centered.

The creator himself was egoistic.. he was self generated ,self motivated..[Read somewhere dude] so ubiquitously comes a “SELF” .. But then this doesn’t unerringly mean that I don’t heed about others..

The very first man invented fire for the very sake that he wanted to bear with the cold. It was his self centered invention for his own wish. But he never bunged with that.. he taught that to his brotherhood and here we lit fire when we want to warm ourselves.. Hats off to the primitive man for being self centered.. So I connote to say that there is nothing without SELF..

So accept everything as it comes.. Everything happens for a reason . Something must happen to realize something else.. It happens with everyone .No one is perfect.
You are born into this world for a purpose.. Realize your worth and set up a goal to find your foot steps well established.. Never let yourself down.. “ BE YOURSELF “

Here goes my nxt poem....

There I watch the ship nearin my reach
When I was sittin in the beach
Millions of questions inside my mind
Walkin in the water is my dream’s rind

The door of happiness instigated
Do dreams come true is still being interrogated
With lotsa questions I was bounded
There I stood confounded

Is it true?? Am I strong??
Answers were perfect in my chutzpah
Couldn figure out the reason for “why”
“I dunno” was all tht I could say n sigh

Time does bring close ones near
And as it took me into my dear
My life’s mysteries were discovered
My wounds were recovered

Dint knw so long tht hearts talk n eyes too…
Up in air drenched in momentous joy
Wish it ne’er ends...with butterflies in my stomach
Rejoicing?? Or was I rejuvenatin??

Still a question mark in some cases,
But, exclamation mark in mosta places!!
I do knw I will get wat I wantd
What I want is wat is with me rite nw

Forever and forever I will cherish
“Everythin happens for a reason”

A silent whisper
A strong prayer
To my love is all me I wish to surrender!!

This is nothing bt my own imagination..virtual character being potrayed here n nothin else!!

He is so so nice..
I keep staring into his eyes
Tats whr my happiness lies..
They made me mad .. I dunno why..
but life is not jus to sigh..
At spring mending time I find him here..
And on a day we meet to walk the line..
Spring is the mischief in me and I wonder
If I cud put a notion in his head..
Myself not least and honor him the most..
Much I haven seen n known bout him..
Gleams that untravelled world ,his eyes still in my mind..
For ever and forever when I move they will ne'er wade..
How dull it is to pause and make an end..
By not making him my friend..
Life piled on life
were all too little and of one to me
to talk with him merely
from eternal silence ..something more
A bringer of new things
A partner in my sorrow's mysteries
for shade to shade will come too drowsily..
And drown the wakeful anguish of the soul..